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I debated all day to post yes, no, right, wrong...
I'm here so yes and right won out. There are so many words and thoughts swirling in my head that they need to flow so that I might start a healing process that just seems nightmarish at best.
How does a child prepare for the loss of a parent?
I have 6 months or less to make the most of the time my mom has left on this earth.
Six months if we're lucky, but luck is going to have nothing to do with it. For someone like me who is the forever optimist and finds the good in everything, for the life of me can't think of one single, solitary thing that will be rosy & bright at the end of all of this. What good could EVER come from watching a loved one succumb to such an evil and ugly disease? Where in the hell would a silver lining be hiding in the muck that's sucking the life of my mother?
it rained today
my heart is broken
my head hurts
i'm lost in sadness and grief