Friday, June 12, 2015

June is...

....Alzheimer's & Brain Awareness Month.

 In honor of my dad who is in the late stage of Alzheimer's, I'm wearing purple all month. 

This is my dad, Jay (BIG puffy heart) 

This was taken last year and has been sitting on my desk top that long-waiting for the perfect moment to be posted. Today seems perfect.
 This moment is rooted into my brain for eternity.
 After a MUCH needed hair cut at the center where my dad lives, I was wheeling him back to his room~Oh my the fuss the nurses and other residents were making as we walked by. It was more than a little overwhelming for dad. He couldn't understand what all the hullabaloo was about. Well-meaning nurses were popping their heads into his room and telling him how nice he cleaned up. Dad only got a quick look at himself back at the barber shop so he asked me for a mirror. He wanted to get a better look. Wanting to indulge him, I locked his chair in place, joked..."don't move, i'll be right back"...he chuckled, and I ran back to the barbers to grab this mirror.
I can only imagine the thought process that was going through his disease riddled brain.
I always have my phone handy and I quickly snapped this photo which pretty much speaks volumes. I see fear in face, something I never witnessed back when his life was normal.
 He never spoke a word...he didn't have to.
Admittingly, some weeks I'm really good at calling my dad, others...not so much. It's just that I'm elated when I call and he recognizes me and says "this is my daughter, Kelly." I know there will be a day when he won't know who I am-but at least the phone call before he did. So, some days drag into longer days that go by.
It's a lousy excuse, I know, but guilt always wins out-I call...and for the time being, I am remembered.
I don't know how purple became the chosen color for The Alz.org 
Maybe because purple symbolizes mystery...which the disease certainly is-even to the experts. Maybe because it's a combination of red and blue...color spectrum extremes-like the extreme turmoil alzheimer's brings to a family? In any case, I'm wearing purple all month, in some way, shape or form in on honor of my dad, Jay.

Happy (purple) snapping!
xo
Kelly



Tuesday, June 2, 2015

Texture...

...Tuesday 


Yikes...I actually had to scroll through my Instagram feed to see when I visited the local Japanese garden. I'm embarrassed to say it was 7 weeks ago...7 weeks friends. But if you missed THIS POST it sort of explains what was going on at the time. I noticed as I was going through the desktop file these were in, the top photo has Kim's "make some noise 1" texture  applied so I know that I had originally planned to post this on a Tuesday....Oh...look at that, it's Tuesday...only 7 weeks later! 
I make the little drive once a year in the spring to catch the brilliance of all the blooms.
It WAS a beautiful day at the garden. 

The lilies were in bloom...


...the cherry blossoms were in bloom...


...the maple tree was a brilliant shade of red.


Sadly though, evidence of the drought has started rearing it's ugly head in this well manicured sanctuary in the middle of the valley. 


It's like there's a bubble of the garden and the entire world gets shut out for a bit...and all that's left are the thoughts in your head, the sound of birds and the pit pat of a water feature.


Nature is my medicine. ~Sara Moss-Wolfe

Happy (late to the party) snapping!
xo
Kelly

Monday, June 1, 2015

Hello...

...June


It is with childlike giddy-ness I welcome June. With only 5 days left in the school year, my mornings will soon be free to do as I wish...free to snooze longer than 6 a.m., free to linger over the morning crossword puzzle, free to take my daily walk before the heat kicks in, free to write, shoot, play, travel and free to move about the day according to me.
 June also brings with her much trepidation. I've only recently come out of a self loathing funk & ready to talk about why I'll be getting a partial hysterectomy June 25th. A rather large (19 cm & growing) fibroid has taken up residence in my abdomen and playing havoc on the neighboring organs. I've been rather miserable & have especially hated looking 3 months pregnant. (If you're pregnant, no offense...I've had my 3 kiddos and I'm 51!)
  Sometimes things happen beyond our control & the only thing you can do is cope the best way possible. Arming myself with information to make the best informed decisions is how I feel best able to take back some control. The surgery has put a crimp in our summer plans with pre-op appts and recovery time. To make matters more challenging, I've developed an umbilical hernia. I asked to have both surgeries done at the same time but because of where both surgery sites are, there's a threat of infection and possibly compromising one or both sites. Because of where the fibroid sits, a hysterectomy or menopause is the only way to get rid of it...the latter is no where in sight~so the big H it is....yeah... 
If you have any words of wisdom I am ALL ears! 

Happy (summer) snapping!
xo
Kelly


Thursday, May 28, 2015

Friday...

...finds


Every 4th Sunday, there's a vintage faire held in the parking lot of a local college. Due to the various graduations, it was held this past Sat. I never miss an opportunity to go~for one thing, I'm afraid I'm going to miss out on buying something I really need! This month did not disappoint. This adorable vintage linen was just one of the few little treasures I found. It just instantly makes me smile.


It screams of summers past and simpler times and yellow is such a happy color. 
It's nice to be back...in this space I love so much.

I'm playing over at Kim's...lots of inspiration over there...

Tuesday, April 7, 2015

Texture...

...Tuesday

I've only ever read about bloggers speaking so highly of Bella-Grace  magazine and given peeks into it's magical pages. I almost squealed like a piglet when I came across the publication looking for something else entirely. I snatched it like it was the last one earth...like it is coveted and I possessed it now! As I was standing in the check-out line flipping through the pages, I knew by Kim's style that she was featured. I could hardly stand it when I discovered 2 more blogger/IG buddies were also featured~
I almost burst!


I LOVE still life photography and just want to play everyday and hone in on it-of course that isn't always possible.(but a girl can dream) At the end of Kim's piece, there is a page for exploring still life photography & to jot items that make "your heart flutter." So I gathered unlike items that I wanted to shoot...It was like opening the flood gates and permission, if you will, to let go, have fun and just shoot!
(KK's Naturally textures used)


As I was shooting, I noticed a little page book marker sticking out...swoon!


It's rare when I shoot that more photos are usable than not...But not this shoot. It was like the stars and moon and the most perfect light was aligned for me yesterday.


The cool thing about not having hair is having time to blog before work!
This is 2 weeks after my big shave. I actually went to Frankie's barber for a clean-up. THAT was a bit nerve wracking! I was getting anxious as I was scrolling at short hair-dos trying to figure out a style I wanted to go with. And then I said to myself...why? Why would you want all that work and fuss if it makes you anxious. So, I decided I'm not ready to grow it back yet! 




Hope you all had a beautiful Easter/Passover with friends and loved ones. 
I'll be over to say hello throughout the week :-)
Until then...
Happy (spring) snapping!
XO
Kelly

Kim Klassen dot com

Thursday, March 26, 2015

Friday...

...finds


What a week!
 I don't even know where to begin. 
I guess I'll start with how amazing and freeing having no hair is. Bringing awareness to pediatric cancer  research and how little has been discovered let alone treatments that have been FDA approved in the last 20 years has been an eye opening experience. Getting kids to talk about outward looks vs doing something bigger than yourself and what's on the inside has filled me with such a sense of achievement. Empowering children takes a village. Then to raise money ($2,000+) for St. Baldrick's and going the extra step to shave my hair and "walk in a child's shoe's" who doesn't get the choice to keep their hair has been a humbling and treasured experience. 
Yes...it's been a full but powerful week.

Sharing over at Kim Klassen's today.

Happy (hairless) snapping!
xo
Kelly

Kim Klassen dot com

Monday, March 16, 2015

Brave the Shave...

...Chronicles #3



It occurred to me this morning as I was shampooing my hair that this time next week I won't have any hair to shampoo. That though led me to another thought...

...this time next week I'll be saving about 20 minutes every day not having to blow dry OR


 have any need for hair products OR


vacuum up the ridiculous amount of hair I'm losing anyway. (I blame that on hormones!)

This time next week I won't have any need to use hair bobbles of any kinds.


This time next week I'll be using sunscreen in stead of mousse because my scalp will be at the sun's mercy for the first time...EVER! 

This time next week I won't have to ask friends for donations. That part was way out of my comfort zone and was a bit awkward.  I hope I've asked with dignity and didn't seem too pushy. 

This time next week I'll be wearing a "ASK ME WHY I'M BALD" button to further shed light and awareness of childhood cancers and the St. Baldricks foundation.

Jamie and Erik are driving down on Friday for the shave-I am so excited to have them both here for the event. 
I've raised $1200 to date...an amount I'm very proud of...with 4 days yet to go-
(shameless plug :-) )

The kids at school are still working on something big and the only thing I know for sure is it involves  bags of toys and pizza! 

I have a sneaking suspicion that this week is just gonna buzz fly by! LOL

I've been asked a lot questions lately...

...I hope this answers some of them.

Happy Snapping!
xo
Kelly