Tuesday, June 25, 2013

The greatest weapon against stress...

...is our ability to choose one thought over another
William James


But how does one do that when you feel like your head is being squeezed in a vice?
Ok...maybe the 2 glasses of wine I had last night had a little something to do with my head hurting
BUT...and it's a big but, I'm really, really, racked with emotions at this upcoming trip back to Pensacola. As I sit here, (when I should be making phone calls & information gathering) my brother is in court awaiting a judge to grant him temporary guardianship of my mom. The state of Florida has taken over, deemed her a danger to herself and it looks as if this next trip will be to place my mom in an assisted living facility so she can convalesce, with the notion it very well could end up permanent. That's A LOT of stress. 


I'd love to give my stress wings to fly...
...far, far away

There is still so much to do. My Dad's affairs aren't settled yet. 


My Ms M. calls me a jewel...I really don't feel like that-not when all I really want to do is lash out, scream and cry wishing all this to be done and over with. 
But, I know me.
I will do what's right, forgoing my needs first....grumbling, stumbling, feeling my way through the dark...
waiting for the light at the other end

Happy ( aspirin swallowing) snapping!
xo
Kelly

12 comments:

  1. Take one day at a time, Kelly, that's all you can do.
    I sure hope things get better soon. I am sure that all of this is very difficult.
    Sending thoughts for good things, your way.

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    1. Thank u Lisa. I really appreciate it.

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  2. Even though the ride won't be over, just getting your mom settled in somewhere and knowing that someone is nearby to watch over her should relieve some of the stress. I hope things go smoothly and that your trip will bring you some peace. Take care of you while you're at it!

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  3. I feel your frustration and your sadness ... I understand your need to scream, yell, throw things.
    I wish I had a magic wand to make all of these hardships turn into magical times again.
    I'm here if you need me ... **hugs** Mwah! ♥

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    1. Thanks Sis!! Love ya. Don't forget to blog!!!!

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  4. Kelly, this is my first visit to your blog, although I follow you on IG. Thank you for stopping in to Focusing on Life today so I could see your link. Things are pretty tough right now but I hope you know you have a lot of friends who are in our corner and rooting for you. Don't forget to take care of yourself as you go though this difficult time.

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  5. I continue to be impressed at how you are illustrating your emotions through the model. Your rage is to be expected, your frustration understandable. Small steps will get you to the light.

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    1. Hi Nicki. I have u to thank for resparking my interest in getting one of these guys. Thank u for your kind words. Xo

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  6. The only "right" way to respond to all this, is what comes naturally. So rage away. Better than keeping it all bottled in.

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  7. Hang in there Kelly. Your illustration was spot on to how you are feeling. Great way to tell the story of your emotions at this moment in time.

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