Finding joy...

...in the everyday

Yesterday was hard. The calendar rolled over from September to October. I'm keenly aware of the days ahead. Dread? Relief? Gratitude? Yes to all 3.  It's coming up on the 1st anniversary of my mom's passing. It's not going to be an ordinary day~it's on a Wednesday. I've relived that day and the days leading up to my mom's death hundreds of times throughout the year. Will it be any different on THAT day? I'm not sure. I am however relieved the year of "firsts" is over...You know~the 1st time you want to text or call her, her birthday, or wishing her Merry Christmas. I'm hoping those 1sts will be slightly easier to endure in the coming year. I'm so grateful for the love and support I've received over the year to help guide me through the tearful days.

So? How does one go about finding joy in the everyday when some days can be all consuming with other thoughts not so joyous? 

For me it's simple...

...I just do... 

 I wake up everyday & make a very conscious choice to make the day as worth while and as good as I humanly can-no matter what is rattling up in my head. I open my heart for awareness of even the tiniest gifts the day has to offer that can uplift my spirits.

I just do

And so, I thought about doing a daily post in Oct. to share my everyday gift-but that's just asking for an epic fail. ( I know myself TOO well!) 

I decided instead to keep a list and pop them in at the end of a post. 

That's much more doable.

My everyday gifts: 

10/1: helping a struggling student actually enjoy a concept in math he didn't understand.

10/2: being here today and writing through my grief process

Happy (finding YOUR everyday gift) snapping!

xo

Kelly

Sharing over at
Kim's Little by Little

Fake fall...

...and texture Tuesday with Kim

While many of you are enjoying the subtle changes of the season, delighting in the turning leaves all golden and crimson, donning warmer clothes and cute boots, the crunch of leaves that have fallen under foot... 

...Southern Californians are being told not to pack away our shorts and bathing suits just yet.

It's going to be in the triple digits by the weekend...like *104 triple digits.

(I'm NOT happy)

So think of me you're making soup and sipping hot cider & i'll be thinking of you making soup and sipping hot cider while trying to keep cool in the pool...drinking ice tea...probably bar-b-qing. (sigh)

 I am however, slowly...

 s-l-o-w-l-y pulling out my fake fall goodies and it's a good thing I get distracted by shiny, glass balls!

It's hard to think about decorating when your A/C's blowing.

In the above photo I used Kim's "greydayslate"-soft light @100% & added some Florabella's warmth.

Kim's "nested"-soft light at 100% added the perfect finish in the photo above.

Happy (keep cool/stay warm) snapping!

xo

Kelly

When the sound of click, click, clicking...

...isn't music to your ears.

 It may or may not have been happening already, but back in March is when I really started noticing the clicking noise my shoulder made at any given moment or any movement I made. It clicked during our fabulous cruise down to Mexico with a stopover in Catalina...

... through the incredible 10 days Jamie and Erik was visiting...

...in fact, I spent my whole summer clicking away and NOT in a fun camera kind of way. In constant pain and sleepless nights , I fell into a funk.

 My spirits had fallen too-I mean what could I possibly say or write that would have any relevance considering the state the world was in? 

So I stayed away from this place...

ALL

SUMMER

LONG...

...and then some. 

 I couldn't lift a coffee cup let alone my camera.

I did however, discover Newspaper Blackout Poetry by Austin Kleon

It allowed me to work through my funk...

... and at least I had found a creative outlet.

Rainy Day

Your story your way. Make it beautiful

School started, I went back to work-the clicking got worse, the pain got worse till one day, tired from waking up at 4 a.m., I had my breaking point from the pain and stiffness, I went to see my Doctor. 

She told me I had a frozen shoulder. Adhesive capsulitis to more exact.

Basically the tissue around the joints stiffen & scar tissue forms to the point where the range of motion is down to nothing. There are 3 stages to frozen shoulder... 

Freezing

Frozen

Thawing (the stage I'm in now)

I recently had an X-ray to make sure I didn't have arthritis-thankfully that came back negative. I had a round of Prednisone, a cortisone shot followed and I started physical therapy.

 All of which has gotten me 50% of my shoulder mobility back. 

Enough to be able to finally be pick up my camera and shoot this-

Because Frankie and I never got around to replanting the milkweed away from here over the summer,

A Mama Monarch laid eggs to which I just released about 25 butterflies...give or take a few. 

So the good news now is, instead of living with pain at a 7-10 range, it's more like a manageable 1/2 to 1-totally doable.

PT does bring me to tears as my shoulder is worked to tear away the scar tissue but I know there is an end in sight. It might be 3-6 months away-but none-the-less closer. I still jar my shoulder every now and again if I'm not watching what I'm doing-I can finally-even if briefly, sleep on my right side-that's a little like heaven and I sigh a deep sigh and fall into a beautiful slumber. If you follow me on IG, you know I still make newspaper blackouts. I think it will be fun to do a blog post on that so keep an eye out for that one.

My spirits have for the most part returned. I'm still unhappy over the world's state of affairs, and I hope what I have to say is important enough to want to keep blogging. I'm taking it as it comes feeling & going through what I need to.

Thank you all for the wonderful "welcome back" sentiments.

 I just love my on-line family both here and over on IG.

Happy (thawing out) Snapping!

xo

Kelly

Monday...

...Listicles

Oh my, this space has been neglected~maybe that could be a listicle all on it's own...10 reasons why I haven't been here. I've written & deleted at least 50 times (and still writing & deleting) a way to even begin...again.

 Stasha over at Northwestmommy had the perfect solution for me to ease back into the blogging world...

10 hashtags to describe myself.

Lots to share, over the next few weeks.

 But for now, my list in no particular order:

1. #ilovereadinghastags

2. #ivediscovereddarkchocolateseasaltcaramelsandineedhelp

3. #i'vefalleninlovewithblackoutpoetry

4. #iphoneeditingisaddicting

5. #letmegooglethat

6.# ilovemyjob

7. #i'vemissedyouallbutgladiseeyouonIG

8. #ican'twaitforGATHERCALIFORNIAwithKimKlassen

9. #it'shotterthanhellhere

10. #ilovecollectingbitsandpieces@vintagefairs

Well now, that was easy & I won't be gone for THAT long anytime soon. I'll be doing some catching up over the next few weeks here and over in your little corner of the blogging world. Thanks for popping in today. I always appreciate you and your time.

Happy (child's play) snapping!

xo

Kelly

Friday's finds...

...and letters

Good Morning and happy Friday my friends.

 I'm playing over at Kim's cafe  today-care to join me to see other fun finds?

Before school let out I started making a list of day trips I wanted to do sprinkled throughout the summer. I crossed Descanso Gardens off that list yesterday! 

Just a short 20 minute drive out to Pasadena & you are in another world.

There were pops of color and contrast everywhere.

Then I ran across these sunny side up "fried egg" flowers! 

I showed up late in the season for all the pretty blooms...

But there's a lilac garden...A LILAC GARDEN-400 plants & 250 types of lilacs!

 I'll have to be sure and mark my calendar for next March.

 I found amazing places all over the garden to just sit, reflect, breath and take in the views.

My next field trip is Monday...

...a little cruise out to Catalina & then on down to Mexico. I'll be posting pics on IG (@kellykardos) if you want to ride along!

Dear Dad,

This Alzheimer's stinks. Getting sucked into your world is scary for me I can't imagine what it's like for you. Now, I'll admit, our conversation last night started out amusing...but when you told me you were worried I was going to be kidnapped when I come to visit you & that you'll be in the trees working to protect me with your M-14, well...things sort of went down hill from there. I learned a new phrase last night-Sundowners syndrome. I don't think I'm going to call you in the evenings anymore.

Dear summer vacation,

I love you.

Dear Mom,

I decided it was time to pick up the book we started to read together. It's been over a year-actually it's been that long since I've picked up any book to read. I had to start it again so I traded the bookmark for one that you made me. I sat in the same cozy couch corner so you'll know where to find me if you care to look over my shoulder while I read. The late afternoon sun blazes through the window and bathes me in warmth and it feels good. 

Dear Fibroid,

You suck. 

Dear Teresa,

I could not have asked for a better sister-in-law. 

You are a hoot and are down right hilarious.

Dear peeps,

Thanks for visiting today!

Happy (summer) snapping

xo

Kelly

App Happy...

...Wednesday

Oh My! 

This day got so busy and is quickly running away. I had the best intentions to be here early to play over at Barb's. 

The thing about summer vacation is that at first, I have to force myself to slow down and take things as they come and be totally ok with how my day goes. (that would be today!) I got it in my head last night that since Wednesday is app day I wanted to share 2 with you, one photo related and one not. 

So let's talk game apps!

 My husband and I LOVE to play Scrabble and  WORDS BY POST has an awesome, free, and easy game that we play sometimes sitting across from each other and other times we play when Frankie's away on trips. We always have a game going. Did I mention it's free? The ads are at the bottom and quite honestly, I never even notice them. 

Sometimes Frankie will play a word that I have NO idea what it is. See the word DOGE? Yeah, I had no idea what it was. You can click on a word, a ? will appear, click again and the word is defined for you. The game will not let you submit a word if it isn't recognized-not sure under who's authority tho! You can recall your tiles at any point within your turn.
BTW-doge is the chief magistrate in the republics of Venice and Genoa. 

You can swap tiles. (hmmmmm, like what was I going to do with 3 A's?)

Your points and your opponent's points appear where the word was placed.

 ( 22 points! I got lucky on this word.)

The banner up top lets you know whos turn it is.

You can chat too!

You can "Shuffle Tiles" while they're on your letter rack. This feature helps me "see" words! You can see I'm losing! (What's new!?) You can resign on your turn...but that would mean you're a sore loser!

(as in "BE NICE AND DON'T TAKE MY SPACE FOR THE AWESOME WORD I HAVE!)

It let's you know when your opponent has 3 tiles left!

 And if you've won or lost!

That's always fun! (I see this a lot!)

Right away one of us hits REMATCH. It's a great way to keep your brain synapsis firing. But really, it's just fun and even though it's another sign of the times and keeps us engaged in electronics, the key word is "engaged" and it's mutual and that's what is important.

Are you still with me?!

If you follow me on IG (@kellykardos) you'll know this was my #dailyclick. 

I used PicFrame. 

Five pages of different frames styles, use of an adjustment tool within your chosen frame, FX Effects, rotate/mirror, frame shape and frame pattern options. To add text, tap on the photo for TONS of font options. There's a rotate text option, and finally, save to camera roll or other apps, and/or share to IG, Flickr, Twitter, FB and Tumblr are other options. It's VERY intuitive, fun and easy to use.

Ok, I think I'm going to head over to Barb's now. Care to see what "app-ening" with me?

"appy" snapping!!

xo

Kelly

Friday's...

...letters

Dear Me,

SUMMER VACATION STARTS NOW!

 Let the decompression, early morning house cleaning, room by room purging, plan dinner before 

2 p.m., afternoon playtime, pool dipping, play tourist in your own state, begin! 

Yippee!

Dear Ms Kitty,

Us humans have a saying, it goes like this,

"Don't bite the hand that feeds you." You pissed The Mr. off last night & there is absolutely no reason that you need to hiss and swat at us anymore. Especially when you're the one that lays down to be loved on...What's up with that? You DO NOT want to go toe to toe paw to paw toe to paw with The Mr. He WILL break you of that habit. Consider yourself warned.

Dear Baby Raven,

Could you be any cuter?

Dear D,

I can't imagine what you are going through. I feel so helpless wondering how you are surviving your day, getting through simple tasks and hoping that you are not forgetting to take care of yourself. The one thing that I had a hard time getting past sitting with my mom was that my world seemed to have stopped, like I stepped off a bus and everything around me kept spinning. I was upset and more than a little jealous that everyone else got to go on with their lives. Everything in their world was normal while everything in mine was everything but normal. I'm pretty sure this is normal. I will continue to check in on you everyday. I won't forget about you and the burden you are carrying on your shoulders. 

I'm sending hugs through the universe sis.

Dear Kim Klassen,

Thanks to you I dry all my flowers now :-)

Thank you for your imagination and constant inspiration!

Dear California Chrome,

I'm not into horse racing-But I am hoping you win the Triple Crown tomorrow! There is such excitement in the air for you and your humble beginnings. 

Good Luck

Happy (summer lovin') snapping!

xo

Kelly