...in the everyday
Yesterday was hard. The calendar rolled over from September to October. I'm keenly aware of the days ahead. Dread? Relief? Gratitude? Yes to all 3. It's coming up on the 1st anniversary of my mom's passing. It's not going to be an ordinary day~it's on a Wednesday. I've relived that day and the days leading up to my mom's death hundreds of times throughout the year. Will it be any different on THAT day? I'm not sure. I am however relieved the year of "firsts" is over...You know~the 1st time you want to text or call her, her birthday, or wishing her Merry Christmas. I'm hoping those 1sts will be slightly easier to endure in the coming year. I'm so grateful for the love and support I've received over the year to help guide me through the tearful days.
So? How does one go about finding joy in the everyday when some days can be all consuming with other thoughts not so joyous?
For me it's simple...
...I just do...
I wake up everyday & make a very conscious choice to make the day as worth while and as good as I humanly can-no matter what is rattling up in my head. I open my heart for awareness of even the tiniest gifts the day has to offer that can uplift my spirits.
I just do
And so, I thought about doing a daily post in Oct. to share my everyday gift-but that's just asking for an epic fail. ( I know myself TOO well!)
I decided instead to keep a list and pop them in at the end of a post.
That's much more doable.
My everyday gifts:
10/1: helping a struggling student actually enjoy a concept in math he didn't understand.
10/2: being here today and writing through my grief process
Happy (finding YOUR everyday gift) snapping!
xo
The mind is our most powerful tool...and sometimes we have to rely on it to "just do". I'm coming up on the 2 year anniversary of my dads passing and it DOES get easier to "just do". My favorite thing it to find little signs that I know are sent from my dad. It's a blessing for sure.
ReplyDeleteYes, as time passes the pain dulls a little but the memories are always there. And by choosing to make each day worth-while is a joyous goal, big hugs, my friend. I am so glad you are back to blogging!!
ReplyDeleteWhat a wonderful attitude you have, Kelly!
ReplyDeleteWishing you a beautiful weekend!
I'm with Kathy and Deanna in that time helps to heal and finding little things that remind you of your lost one will start to bring a smile more than remorse. When you want nothing more than to turn the clock back, just doing and moving forward is truly the best and healthier option.
ReplyDeleteYou honor your mother with your open, generous heart. Bless you.
ReplyDeleteKelly, I feel your heart. I don't believe it ever gets better, it gets different. That's how I've dealt with my dad's passing. It's just different. Every single day. Love and hugs.
ReplyDeletevery pretty - love that bokeh!
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