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This says it all. The phone call, the decision, the risk, the loss. I flew to Fla. to take care of my mom. Except for an intermission to fly home for Jamie's wedding, this is my home until at least the end of April. I've left my comforts behind-my patient and loving husband, Austin, my job, my life, to fix two broken lives-my mom and dad. My brother and his wife are patiently dealing with a father who's brain is riddled with dementia and me-dealing with a shell of a woman otherwise known as my mom who is succumbing faster and faster to depression. I followed my head and my heart-they both told me that this is where I need to be-at this moment in time. It makes my heart sad-all of it, losing my parents of yesterday, the time away from my love, Austin who is getting "grow-up" lesson 101 in the crudest of manners. All I see at the moment is papers and numbers and appointments to make-I need a sign-a sign that will soothe my broken heart.
xo
Kelly
If somebody knows how to get a photo from my mail to an iPad to a blog-I'd REALLY REALLY appreciate it!! Xo
ReplyDeleteHang in there Kelly. My mom suffers from loss of memory and can no longer drive. I've been feeling the exact same way when it comes to papers, numbers and appointments. It's so hard to comprehend when in your mind you still think of her as she once was. Sending you a big hug and well wishes. Hope you're able to get some things accomplished and spend some quality time with her. Where in Florida does she live?
ReplyDeleteIn pensacola And thank you.
DeleteHi Kelly -- I am so sad to hear about your parents. What a sacrifice you are making and also an example for your own sons on what a child does for their mom and dad. Of course this doesn't surprise me because you give so much to the smallest of God's creatures with the way you nurture your butterflies, I had no doubt that you would be there for your parents. If you want to get a photo from your mail to your iPad just click on it and long press and the option will come up to save it. There's an app called blogsy - it's $4.99 but you can blog directly from you iPad. There are videos on blogsyapp.com that will show you how to use it. You'll be able to add a blog post from you iPad and insert any image you want. Hope this helps!
ReplyDeleteOh thank u so much Geri. I had a feeling if anyone knew how to do it-you would. :-)
DeleteOh Kelly, my sweet one. I am so sorry you are having to deal with this anguish. It's hard, I know it's hard, but you will get through this, and you will feel good about doing it. Your husband, Austin, they will be there when you return, but you know in your heart this is where you are needed more, right now, right at this moment. I wish I could reach out and give you a hug and tell you that it will be alright, not right now, not next week, but it will be alright. I only hope that if I need my daughter she will come to my aid as you are going to yours. Love!!
ReplyDeleteThank you for your kind words Deanna. Xo
DeleteI can feel the weight of your burden in every word of this post. I can relate to ever emotion racing through your body as I went through something similar with my mom during her final year. I only wish I had words that would ease your strife or suggestions to make this journey easier, but as others have mentioned - you are doing the right thing even when it seems otherwise.
ReplyDelete{{hugs}}
Just knowing others care means the world. Thank you Nicki n
DeleteYou are one strong woman, my friend.
ReplyDeleteI'm sure that your Mom and Dad are feeling the love that you have for them. Isn't it interesting how life comes full circle? You are nurturing them ....
I'm sending positive vibes your way .... text me anytime ... call me anytime .... mwah! ♥
Thanks D. You're the best sis. Xo
DeleteI know that was a difficult decision to make, Kelly, but I feel that you will be glad that you did this. And while you are leaving behind your husband and Austin, you are also teaching Austin valuable lessons: that you take care of your loved ones when they need you the most and that life gets tough sometimes, but we do what we have to do.
ReplyDeleteMy thoughts and prayers are with you.... Let me know if I can do anything (lend a shoulder, listen to you).... Hugs.
Roban, thank you for your words of encouragement. They help me see things in a fresh perspective.
DeleteI just found your blog today and was touched by this heartfelt post. I am so sorry to hear of your troubles, but I feel your strength and know you will get through this. My post today is about stepping out of your box and that is just what you are doing...
ReplyDeleteBlessings, my new friend.